15 Days

16/5/2011

At times what is called as the darkest period of life, the feeling of Hopes has always remained in every ones life. A time comes when every one looses their faith in everything, a things that keeps you binned with the way of life is a gut feeling that you developed in the mean period of attachments.

15days.. Gonna be hard time. Not even completed with a quarter period, when it had just started to blossom and grow, a half month span of separation is truly not wanted. Getting used to the touch, the hold, eye sight and smile, its expected to keep it coming on and on more everyday. 

But now its turn off of 15 days. The texts, the chats, the says and bye’s. Off for 15 days. Meeting time will remind, memories of past meets. Here we would have been, there we would be sitting. Really its not a small gap.

A new schedule has been decided, get up, smile, realize and again smile. Look at the calender, check the marked date, “Oh! More XX days” and….feel the pain. Make a guess, locate on the mind map, imagine the way, its too far….. again a pain. Get down the shower makes remember the play, touch over the heart and kiss on the head. Tears can be let flow now, shower to help drain.

How hard hands feel, keys though soft but nothing to read. Screen is blank mobile is crank, battery is low, where should I go? Reason doesn’t exists, no place no outings, 15 days such days like life doesn’t exists.

17/5/2011

Night passed over, u there m here. Over the conversation of phone i could hardly hear. But it felt so good, a voice that cheered and removed all fear. Cell phones making it so easy, even at a altitude network isn't busy ;). Ur voice though shatters but u r safe and perfect thats what matters. Distance between two, miles increasing, a chat over the phone Smiles increases.

Yes of course, i have a fear, people can be bad becoz ur soo Dear. Feeling of possessiveness ponders like fear, unknowingly heart stumbles, bcoz u aren't near. Words of advices hence come forth, but then it realizes u r true and worth. 

18th and 19th/5/2011

While counting on days remaining, they r getting cut down, but then still even remaining 10 days are like an year to go still. So eventually this is a part of the most important but not understood theory that Einstein proposed 'Theory Of Relativity'. Ahh! days going with a hard time. Emotions are building high tide in the vast ocean of heart that keep dashing over the brain walls and cracking my all so got control over it. . 

Problem is, to hear u i long all the time, but then when i hear the voice over the call, suddenly realizes the distance that the waves cut through to reach that that even they delay. . No! I don't wana hear u. I feel missing, incomplete and low. Another secret iz i also feel jealous when  You told me the funn your having. Thinking about the scenery u must be witnessing i used to just go mad about it. I love adventure, i m a trekker but its not me its U there. :( 

And this all mix feeling ultimately made me so sad and low, I decided to be hardly on message. I tried a day but i couldn't keep it up the whole time. More than usually, thoughts were creeping in ma head. a night b4 yesterday was so Awww! I was just thinking over n over while night. No, this wasn't what i expected. "Concentrate" was my aim while studying, but no i couldn't!

Aw! Wish I could fly was the only wish i was keeping . . 

20th-21st/5/2011

What you think its that easy to keep blogging or writing  down your thoughts. For me it all goes with the mood. And talking about the mood, it is worst from last few days. A day can be tolerated  or two. But, its the most difficult time when u actually don't know when u gona next hear that person again. And pain is when u are accustomed to the voice, to the touch, to the sight and HER but, you have no idea where the person is? Which corner of the world, at which heights of these Himalaya's! No clue of their returning and you are just waiting and wanting a Talk.

This is the situation where you are enduring you patience for a person. Waiting is fi9, its not hard but its pain when u know u gona meet but don't know when? And its same. It ultimately makes go pale, low, uninterested in things, slow, unhappy and incomplete. Start feeling unlucky, unpleasant, filthy and shit about the distance. 

U don't wish to cry, bcoz u don't want to show weak. U don't want to cry bcoz u think its matter of few days, u don't cry bcoz it looks stupid. . And then u kill your heart and let veins cry inside. . This is when u just want to be alone and silent bcoz u want to cry inside and don't want to let any1 hear it. . . And then you look beside and finds it empty again. . .

25th/5/2011

Finally when you hear the person over the phone after so long and hard waiting, all your emotions are jolted to your throat to put them out. Thats the situation when you have heavy voice. U are blank, you just can't find words to explain the person over the phone that how much were you waiting. At such times two things happens.

You are over whelmed, wet in eyes and your throat is grasped by the hearty feelings. And so U just can't speak. While your heart is screaming  out the feelings. You are numb over the phone and the other person is waiting for your reaction. But that person if may don't understand, its a total turn down and the emotional scene turns into expectations unfulfilled.

Where as if the other person is your perfect match, when u pick the call and say " Hellooo! " the voice that is felt is enough for that person to read your heart. She can feel it through phone that U really Missed her.

Often it happens same. And the conversations turns into drops of tears and lots of cares. It happened exactly same. To hear the voice across the Himalayas back to me, was like enchanting the lovers cry. The moment the name was seen blinking on the phone mind sent a shivering bolt all over the body and heart churned into delicate feelings. Here U can't stop them rolling down your cheeks to your lips. They just flow out. They are emotions, with wet touch of Tears.

But now what happens is the moment of happiness, which is surpassed by eager feel of eyes to see the person. Now waiting for the remaining time is not possible. Don't want to live those so near coming few days meeting. Whole body just pushes and demands the touch the feel now right now. It just wants to meet right at that moment. You get insane, captivated, entangled, helpless under the strong emotion of the weak heart. 

Its not a simple to deal with these situations in life when you are put to test just at the right moment when you have got the feeling with the partner, routine of meeting, talking, and desire to hold Her. Its hard, its tough and if you sustain the walk without expressing it, YOU HAVE ACHIEVED IT.

26th,27th/5/2011

Sometimes unknowingly either of two, someone hurts. Sometimes unknowingly something  is unnecessarily explained and the worm of doubtful questions creeps in mind. Actually, you are totally fine and great till that, but suddenly when you are told something, that hardly matters, but in a defensive way, it make you upset. Upset bcoz questions arises in mind that just suck away all your wonderful conversation. 

Trust is a most important part of a relation is always true. But also knowing the opposite person, his views about us, his understanding towards us complies it. So better understanding and smart timing should be retained.

28th/5/2011

Now, finally when you have your loved ones there in front of u from a long journey and from no where contact since days, the joy clinches on the face, the warmly feel of the HUG, the skip of the heart beat and the wet eyes with smile fat smile.

Its the feeling of COMPLETENESS when you hold in your arms, when you kiss on the forehead and look into each others eyes. 

I MISSED YOU 

Is the only feeling that we express. And then the kiss completes the missing love and the words I LOVE U. .

After living a life of 15 hell days finally you are here with the fairy, the lady of your life, the ecstasy of emotion, girl of million reason of happiness, the killer smile flasher and THE SWEET HEART.

Treasure her, love her, hold her and care her. Bcoz she made you realize Love in Life. U have by now realized her need. LOVE IT and LIVE IT together. .

(P.S: 15 days belongs to me. . )